And the blows keep on coming...

...and when you sort of deal with one problem, in comes another.

Keeping my fingers crossed and hoping against hope is all I can do right now.

Playing God

Playing God by Paramore

Taken from the album~"Brand New Eyes"

Can't make my own decisions or make any with precision

Well, maybe you should tie me up so I don't go where you don't want me

You say that I've been changing, that I'm not just simply aging

Yeah, how could that be logical?

Just keep on cramming ideas down my throat

You don't have to believe me

But the way I, way I see it

Next time you point a finger

I might have to bend it back

Or break it, break it off

Next time you point a finger... I'll point you to the mirror

If God's the game that you're playing

Well, we must get more acquainted

Because it has to be so lonely... to be the only one who's holy

It's just my humble opinion, but it's one that I believe in

You don't deserve a point of view, if the only thing you see is you

You don't have to believe me

But the way I, way I see it

Next time you point a finger

I might have to bend it back

Or break it, break it off

Next time you point a finger... I'll point you to the mirror

This is the last second chance

(I'll point you to the mirror)

I'm half as good as it gets

(I'll point you to the mirror)

I'm on both sides of the fence

(I'll point you to the mirror)

Without a hint of regret... I'll hold you to it

I know you don't believe me

But the way I, way I see it

Next time you point a finger

I might have to bend it back

Or break it, break it off

Next time you point a finger... I'll point you to the mirror

I know you won't believe me

But the way I, way I see it

Next time you point a finger

I might have to bend it back

Or break it, break it off

Next time you point a finger... I'll point you to the mirror

And check out the video, its awesome and sooooo deep. Click here :)

Not every love story has a happy ending.

Katie Kirkpatrick, 21, resisted the pain of cancer to celebrate the happiest day of her life. Katie had chased cancer, once only to have it return-to clog her lungs and grab hold of her heart. Breathing was difficult now, she had to use an oxygen tank. The pain in her back was so intense it broke through the morphine that was supposed to act as a shield. Her organs were shutting down but it would not stop her from marrying Nick Godwin, 23, who was in love with Katie since 11th grade.

Nick, left, takes a moment of rest while his bride Katie, right, gets an intravenous procedure to reduce the amount of fluids her body is retaining at McLaren Regional Medical Center in Flint on January 12, 2005. Nick who works night shift as a Lapeer County Sheriff’s deputy took Katie to the medical center after a night’s work, three days before their wedding.

Katie, puts on some earings a few minutes before walking down the aisle to marry Nick who she had known since 11th grade, at Church of Christ in Hazel Park on Saturday January 15, 2005.

Dave Kirkpatrick gives the thumbs up to his new son in law while admiring the couple with his wife Niki Kirkpatrick, right, after Nick and Katie got married at Church of Christ in Hazel Park on Saturday January 15, 2005.

Katie, right, gets serenaded by her new husband Nick, and his best men during the wedding party on the dance floor at Boulder Point Golf Club and Banquet Center in Oxford, MI, on Saturday January 15, 2005.

Katie and Nick, cuddle up for a moment while waiting for the wedding photographer to get ready after getting married at Church of Christ in Hazel Park on Saturday January 15, 2005.

Katie, center, rests for a few moments during her wedding party at Boulder Point Golf Club and Banquet Center in Oxford, MI, on Saturday January 15, 2005. Katie was exhausted. Her face looked as white as her gown.

Five days later, Katie died. She did not let sickness stop her from living, take away the hope or faith that made her believe she had a future. She had a lovely wedding and she had love and she gave love and love doesn’ t die. And that is how Katie beat cancer.

Karutan 2: Spongebob Squarepants a.k.a. Spongebob Sluar Kkotok!

Captain:	Are you ready kids?
Kids:	Aye-aye Captain.
Captain:	I can't hear you...
Kids:	Aye-Aye Captain!!
Captain:	Oh! Who lives in a pineapple under the sea?
Kids:	SpongeBob SquarePants!
Captain:	Absorbent and yellow and porous is he!
Kids:	SpongeBob SquarePants!
Captain:	If nautical nonsense be something you wish...
Kids:	SpongeBob SquarePants!
Captain:	Then drop on the deck and flop like a fish!
Kids:	SpongeBob SquarePants!
Captain:	Ready?
EveryBody:	SpongeBob SquarePants! SpongeBob SquarePants! SpongeBob SquarePants!
Captain:	SpongeBob.... SquarePants! Haha.

Versi Kelate (LMFAO)

Ready dok budok-budokkkkk? Ho laa, keptenn! 

Gaaapo diiiooooo? HO LAA, KEPTEN! 

ooooooooo......

Podio dok dalae buohlanah bowoh laut?Spongebob Sluar Kkotok! 

Sene meresap bewarno kuninggg..

Spongebob Sluar Kkotok!

Kalu demo suko bendo laut hok ngarut..

Spongebob Sluar Kkotok!

Pah mari la pakat nnopat supo ikae..

Spongebob Sluar Kkotok! 

Ready?

Spongebob Sluar Kkotok,Spongebob Sluar Kkotok,Spongebob Sluar Kkotok,Spongebobbbbbb Sluar Kkotokkkkkk!!!

Sesuatu yang aku patut lakukan dari dulu lagi (kecek Kelate atau Ganu).

Assalamualaikum, 

Aku dah hidup atas bumi Terengganu (will be noted as Ganu from here on) lebih kurang 2 setengah tahun. Dan aku ade lebih kurang satu semester saje lagi kat UMT, lepas tu aku rase dah tiade kat Ganu dah kot. Maybe sambung belajar, maybe dapat tawaran kerja. Who knows. Tapi yang aku pasti, selepas ni, aku nak cari peluang teruskan hidup selepas graduasi dekat negeri lainlah, KL or Perak maybe. Haha, bukan ape, rase hati mahu cari angin baru (macam la 10 tahun aku duk kat sini lak). 

Tapi, perkara yang selalu bermain dalam fikiran aku ini adalah, nanti, lepas aku graduasi, adakah kawan-kawan atau ahli keluarga aku akan bertanyekan soalan ini....

Soalan: 

Wan, kau tahu x cakap loghat orang Ganu ni? Memandagkan kau dah 3 tahun duduk sane, cakap la sikit, saje kami nak dengar...

Jawapan: 

Boleh la sikit-sikit...(Padehal, kadang-kadang bile aku mahu cakap Ganu, aku tercampur sikit dengan loghat Kelantan pulak. Dan ade sorang kawan rapat aku, orang Kelantan, bile dengar aku cakap, die akan ketawe dan cakap aku nye slang macam orang Siam cakap Kelantan. Haha.Tu belum tambah lagi dengan orang yang gelak aku cakap macam kartun...=.=)

Jadi, mulai hari ini, aku dah beriltizam untuk cube sedaye-upaye untuk belajar sehabis boleh bahase percakapan sehari-harian orang pantai Timur, especially Ganu dan Kelate. Pahang ade loghat ke? Xpelah. haha...

So, nota di bawah ini akan membantu aku dalam misi ini. Berjaye atau tidak, nantikan....

Kesimpulannye, KECEK KELATE KO GANU KO, BUKE/BUKANG BERAT NANANG PUNG!

Haha, aku dah agak ade something wrong  ngan ayat kat atas. 

Macam hybrid Ganu dan Kelate. :p

Rindu mahadewa...

Denting yang berbunyi dari dinding kamarku

sedarkan diriku dari lamunan panjang

Tak terasa malam kini semakin larut 

Ku masih terjaga

Sayang kau dimana aku ingin bersama 

Aku butuh semua untuk tepiskan rindu

Mungkinkah kau disana merasa yang sama 

Seperti dinginku di malam ini

Rintik gerimis mengundang kekasih di malam ini

Kita menari dalam rindu yang indah

Sepi ku rasa hatiku saat ini oh sayangku 

Jika kau disini aku tenang

Karutan 1: Nenet a.k.a The Pendrive Vodoo Doll

Guys, this is Nenet. 

Sepanjang hidup aku, aku rase dah pernah ade lebih 10 pendrive. Yang aku ingat, my first pendrive was a gift from my dad when i was still in form 3. And what happened to all of them? Kene curi la. Yes, i've lost them. huhu. Maybe it's not a big deal to you, tapi kalau dipikirkan balik, if aku still hilang pendrive, and then beli lagi yang baru, agak2 nye dah berape RM yang aku dah habiskan. Haha. 

And here comes Nenet. Actually he is a farewell gift from a staff at MARDI, during my pracatical there. And funny thing is, he looks like a voodoo doll. Yep, the one yang selalu ade dekat Haiti and many african countries yang diorang boleh symbolizekan the doll as a person yang diorang nak hex or sihirkan. Huhu. But Nenet is not that kind of doll, he's a keeper type of doll. Aku dah kasi jampi sikit kat die supaye pendrive aku yang latest ni (beli time PC Fair kat KT awal2 semester tahun ni) tak hilang and sesape yang curi akan putus tangan sesape yang terambil akan pulangkan dekat aku balik.

Pendrive hitam brand Kingston Transcend ni 4GB memori die. Cukup la nak letak documents or movie and games bende2 penting yang dapat bantu aku dalam my studies. Yang paling penting sekali item dlm pendrive ni, is my final year project stuff. Huh, kalu hilang ni tak tau lah aku. Tapi, selagi ade Nenet, I believe pendrive aku x hilang. Of course, I've learnt from my mistakes, aku dah siap2 buat backup data2 dalam pendrive tu. 

Haha, mengarut je aku malam2 ni. 

Otak dah jadi tak betul esok ade test. :p

A reminder not for anyone else

Hi there,
Okay I'll be quick. This post is kinda a more personal note rather than a publicly published stuff but considering that my inability to remember important and unimportant matters, I have to write something so that it will always be here for me to see.


FYI, i have a memory of a gold fish rather than an elephant. What putting me aside from the fish is that i don't starve myself to death just because I've forgotten that i already consumed food 3 second ago.  I guess the bottom line that cause this problem is my ignorance after all and for the many lack of perseverance i have towards exercising the new information to at least stamp in my mind while it's still fresh.


So, if the "future me" reads this, remember that your "past me" have warned you before. Anyways, here goes. 


WHAT THE DUCK ARE U DOING WAN?? FOCUS FOCUS! i know its hard for u to dig deep into the very core of ur thick head buat anything is better than nothing. can u not being indecisive for once , for once in a lifetime and for once for everyone's lifetime. you know its annoying and inconvenience for you and its affecting everyone around u. stop being spoil , u are twenteenone this year. so please make a decision , and it has to be pretty damn well a good one. THINK THINK THINK!!!


Okay, that's that. goodbye now.

what's on my mind

malas nak bangun

bosan takde kerje ape2

buntu

mengantuk tak lena tidur 

bengang dengan jerawat yang makan banyak

gembire sebab dapat balik rumah

lega sebab sudah hantar proposal

tak sabar nak beraye

tapi

tiade ape2 pn dapat mengatasi perasaan

rindu dengan die

dan

MAHU SHOPPING RAYA!!!

akhirnya, aku temu kamu...

Akhirnya aku temu kamu

Saat hati ini mulai meragu

Akhirnya aku temu kamu

Saat raga ini ingin berlabuh

aku berharap kamu lah

Jawapan segala risau hatiku

Dan biarkan diriku

Mencintaimu hingga hujung usiaku

Bila nanti aku sanding dirimu

Miliki aku dengan segala kelemahanku

Dan bila nanti engkau di sampingku

Jangan pernah letih untuk mencintaiku

kerna aku adalah aku . dan bukan orang lain

betul

orang kate hati lelaki itu keras

takkan mudah terusik jika disentuh

takkan mudah rasa tercabar jika ada yang datang bertandang

 benar

dan kadang-kadang aku teringin begitu

aku teringin rasa seperti tidak ada apa-apa

aku teringin rasa seperti ingin berlalu pergi tanpa merasa angin dek hentaman ombak di pantai

tetapi

ternyata aku bukan begitu

aku bukan seperti mereka

kerna aku adalah aku

dan bukan orang lain

p/s: himpunan karya sulung teruna yang tak tahu bersastera....

My promise to you...

i will never steal from you

i will never lie to you

i will never cheat on you

but if i must steal, i will steal away your sorrows

but if i must lie, i will lie with you all the nights of your life

but if i must cheat, i will cheat death

because i couldn't live a day without you

i love you :)

Knock2, who's there?

Its been a long time since i last updated this blog, haha. awal2 dulu bukan main la berazam nak post selalu la, nak cerite kisah2 menarik la. well, biaselah manusia kan. nak dapatkan sesuatu senang je, tapi nak maintain n makes sure sesuatu bende or entiti yang kite punye tu berfungsi dengan baik, agak susah. ape orang kate, ibarat hangat-hangat tahi ayam. mule2 panas tapi lame2 sejuk. seperti tidah menghargai ape yang kite sudah ade, sentiase nak kejar bende2 yang tak confirm kite akan punye.


cakap pasal hargai or penghargaan ni, berape banyak orang dalam dunia ni yang betul2 menghargai cinta yang die ade dan merase cinta yang die beri selame ini dihargai oleh pasangan? kalau ade yang rase begitu, tahniah saye ucapkan. anda adalah antare golongan2 manusia yang sangat bertuah. tetapi, kite sedar ade juga yang tidak bernasib baik macam golongan2 ini. 


ape yang saye nak cakap kat sini adalah untuk tidak give up, akan sentiase ade seseorang (or kalau bertuah lagi a few people :p) yang Allah sudah tetapkan untuk anda. setiap yang berlaku itu ade hikmahnye, am i right? setiap kali Allah turunkan hujan kat muka bumi ini, Allah akan jelmakan pelangi do sebalik mentari.

IKLAN: JANGAN BUKAK BUKU NI PULAK, SANGAT BAHAYE!!!!

last words, tutup buku lama, bukak buku baru! cheers folks!

otak berjalan, tangan tak dapat menaip...

banyak bende nak tulis,

 from insiden berdarah di bulan puase, 

and about the miracles of 7/2/2010, 

and many more,

but the words just cant come out.

 maybe later.

bubye...

The Love We Got

My heart she takes

She'll always be my baby

We may bend, Won't break

but we got no one else to take

She's the sun when my day is low

I'm her picture in front front row

Her love is the center of my attention 

See i dont know what she'd do for me

That girl is my everything

We argue, we fight

Then we make up by the end of the night

Dont even speak it speak it

we know what we got

And i love her, she loves me

And this is how love should be

im down for the love that she got that

and she stays down for the love that we got

i love her, she loves me

And this is how love should be

she's embebed in facebook

everytime she speaks she blows me away

Dont care what people say

as long as shes in the same place where i lay

see ill be as that goes

i'm her prince shes my princess

and no matter what you think about love

time wont outlast us

see yall dont know what she do for me

and im tellin you shes my everything

we argue we fight

then we make up by the end of the night

yall dont know what we got

The miles I'd walk for her are infinite

Ill run circles around the world

And everyday im beside her feels heaven sent

And all else is irrelevant

So keep on exsuding your love on to me

And i love him,he loves me

And this is how love should be

im down for the love that he got that

and he stays down for the love that we got

i love him,he loves me

And this is how love should be

im down for the love that he got that

and he stays down for the love that we got

Male version of "The Love We Got"

by: Zwan Ames

I HATE STUDYING BECAUSE.....

when a good friend calls for help...

Tuesday; 4.30 am...

 i got a call from a really good friend of mine who ive known for a very long time. 

Die ni boleh dikategorikan as seorang yang agak susah nak luahkan perasaan or ceritekan masalah die kat orang lain. Tapi semalam, he was different. his voice pun mcm sebak je. but why...

D: salam wan, ko dah tido ke?

Me: eh. belum lagi. aku ade wat keje sikit. nape ni? 

D: aku ade bende nak cite kat ko ni. aku x tau nak cite kat sape dah....

Me: cakap2. aku ade kat sini. dulu pun ko banyak tolong aku kan. keje pun nak abis dah ni, esok leh sambung lagi. ha, ape die?

D: aku dah putus ngan M....

Me: .......

frankly speaking, i am not the right person to give any nasihat and kate2 pujangga untuk sejukkan hati die or bagi die harapan baru. sebab aku pun masih dalam proses nak belajar perihal2 percintaan ni (n thanx again to cik coklat coz sanggup belajar bersame ;) tapi there's one simple thing yang aku ade cakap kat die yg membuat die terdiam and cakap....

D: betul gak ape yg ko cakap tu. 

aku rase aku dah paham macam mane Tuhan nak bagi kite kebahagiaan... :)

and from his last words from last night's call, i know that i have helped someone to be happy again, even though what i did was just offer him a door to help him regain back his happiness. 

D! aku tahu kau mesti boleh lalui semue ni!!!! :)

.k.i.m.i.a. vs .p.u.t.u.s.

Pada awalnya,nama Melda Ahmad mungkin tak berapa orang nak kenal sangat jika nak dibandingkan dengan Yuna.Tapi kini,nama Melda Ahmad jauh lebih popular dari Yuna (mungkin dikalangan lelaki).Ada juga khabar angin mengatakan Melda bakal pencabar Yuna.Korang cuba compare sendiri suara Melda dengan Yuna.Agak2 mana yang lebih bagus?Tapi papehal pun, Melda Ahmad is in her own class.hohoho....

Lagu Kimia dan Putus aku rasa paling terbaik kot.Memang layan habis la lagu ni.Paling sedeh dengar lagu putus.argggh!!teringat lak bile..N paling gembira bile dengar lagu kimia. hahaha..

To all guys out there..Melda Ahmad nampak gayanya macam solo lagi.muda lagi kot.baru 18 tahun.Korang arr try2 (alu tak boleh dah ;p)..mana tau ada rezki..haha

For more songs from Melda Ahmad, click here.

Or you guys can download it directly here:

Kimia mp3.

Putus mp3.

Halo mp3.

p/s: Cik Coklat, dis is our theme song kan? hehe... :p

Moi revoilà !

         Well, it has been a looooong time since i last blogged. Its not like i have nothing to write, i have a lot! but, seriously, juz dun feel like it. tonnes of stuff had happened to these past months, some of them i wanna keep in my mind forever, n some of them ive kinda deleted them all (but they r still in the recycle bin :p).

         Owh yeah, b4 i forgot ~ ive started to learn french a lil bit and frankly speaking, its quite easy! well, since i only learn the basic stuff, of coz it is easy. LOL. And as the title stated; "Me revoilà!" ; it means in english: ~

    
HERE I AM AGAIN!

I'll try to update this newly-revived 

blog as often as i can.

 dat's a promise 

(fingers crossed! hehe) :p